Juleeonna

Matt doesn't like me. He for sure likes Jazz... I really wish she never came into my life. She ruined it. Everything. -sigh-

he always flirts with her... It makes me sick >_<

And you know what? Jazz has been talking about me behind my back for like a month now. She likes Matt too and she thinks she can just come in and ruin our friendship.. He basically never hangs out with me anymore, and he's made new friends. Jazz's friends. Jazz is like really popular now. She's pretty and gets good grades. everyone loves her. And you know what? She made friends with Starre. Starre is also pretty. but she doesn't get good grades. Everyone loves her anyway. She has long feathery blonde hair, pale skin, a slim figure, and pearly white teeth. Oh, and her eyes perplex everyone. They're brown and blue and green and gray and yellow and lavender. in the dark, they're a deep emerald green. When the light is directly on her face, she lights up and her eyes are sparkling sky blue, teal around the edges, a calm yellow-brown in the center. Her eyes are pure chocolate brown in certain lighting, deep night sky blue, stormy pebble gray, or a light, soft, lavender purple. 

And yeah, me, with my dirty blonde hair, solid blue eyes, clumsy figure, and face with rosasia and dark circles, is bound to get the boy? 

I don't think I'll ever have a chance with him.

And what's weird is that 6 boys now suddenly like me, but I don't like them back. I don't want them to like me. I've got Andrew, a REALLY creepy 8th grader who kind of stalks me, Vincent, some random kid I hang out with sometimes who like 2 other girls, [bastard] Mark, who's liked me for a year now, Charlie, who JUST GETS DONE explaining to Chalyce how much he's in love with Gracie, and then asks me out,  Alfredo, who's supposed to be in 8th grade and is really quiet, Damacio, an extremely smart boy who's nice to everyone, and there's RUMORS about Joseph and Kyle.

I never asked for this! The only boy I've ever liked was Matt. And he has to go falling for Jazz... and now people are saying they saw him holding hands with Starre at recess, which got me really mad because HE KNOWS that Starre and Jazz talk about me badly! They make fun of me for anything they can find. Don't they get it? I don't have a chance with Matt, so why try to make my chances with him worse? You don't want us to be friends at all? 

Ugh. Jazz called me numerous names, including bitch, whore, loser, moron... How immature... And Starre keeps saying I need to do something about ______ [anything that has to do with my appearance] IN FRONT OF MATT. And yeah, I can hear too. Matt just smiles and carries on with flirting! I thought he was better than that... he's not a real friend if a DUMB girl says that and he doesn't even stand up for me. My little brother is better than that,... ugh.

The "floors" are stairs. Yep, our band room has elevations. Pretty fancy? ...uh... haha.  

Matt: When's the dance?

Me: I think it's in February.
Matt: Are you going with anyone?
Me: ...no... (I was excited and trying to keep my cool )
Matt: (silence) ...Do you know if Jazz is going with anyone?
Me: (practically yelling) NO, I DON'T KNOW IF JAZZ IS GOING WITH ANYONE.
Matt: Oh, well... I was thinking I would go with her.
Me: so... you like her?
Matt: Well yeah...
Me: Why?
Matt: Why do you care?
Me: I just want to know.
Matt: Well I don't know. She's just... great. I mean she's the smartest girl in our class, and she is really pretty..
Me:(angrily) How is she the smartest girl in the class? 
Matt: haha, you know all the teachers love her.
Me: That doesn't make her smart, Matt.
Matt: Well she is smart. She gets better grades than me, anyway...
Me: How do you know her grades? 
Matt: She told me.
Me: When did she tell you?!
Matt: On the phone! Jeez! why are you getting so mad!
Me: She has your number?!
Matt: YEAH, how else would she call me?
Me: She calls you?
Matt: Yes! What's your problem?!
Me: Why do you like her so much!?!
Matt: Stop asking me that!
Me: You said you weren't allowed to give anyone your phone number!
Matt: Well for her I made an exception...  (I was pretty much the only person who had his number)
Me: (silence)
Matt: I'm allowed to like girls if I want. Why are you mad at me just because I like Jazz?
Me: Because...
Matt: Because why?
Me: Because I don't like Jazz.
Matt: Why don't you like her?
Me: I don't know. She's just... a brat.
Matt: What did she ever do to you?!
Me: Nothing! But everything about her is so FAKE! She's just some popular girl trying to steal my friends!
Matt: You don't know anything about her! You never talk to her or try to get to know her! She's not mean or anything!
Me: God, Matt! You're so...UGH!
Matt: huh?
Me: You're letting some DUMB girl get in the way of us being friends... I've known you since I was four and you ditch me for a girl you've hardly known for 2 months!
Matt: ....
Me: Well fine, you can have her! Ask her to the dance.. I don't care...I don't even want to know you! (runs away) 

I ran away and I didn't look back. I hate Matt. I didn't talk to him for a week and I didn't even look at him in Science where we sit two seats away. He called me a bunch of times and I didn't answer. Then he called me and without thinking, I answered. 

Me: Hello?
Matt: Julee?
Me: Who's this?
Matt: It's Matt...
Me: (silence)
Matt: Julee?
Me: What...?
Matt: I didn't ask Jazz yet.
Me: You can ask her if you want...
Matt: I won't if you don't want me to.
Me: If you like her then it's your decision.
Matt: I know that...
Me: I'm sorry about in the Quad last week...
Matt: Me too.. I yelled a lot.
Me: Yeah, you did.
Matt: I think I'll just go to the dance for fun.
Me: me too... There's nobody I really wanna go with.
Matt: Me neither...
Me: So I guess I'll see you at the dance?
Matt: Or Monday?
Me: haha, yeah.
Matt: OK then. I'll be on the computer.
Me: kay then...
Matt: Are we friends?
Me: yeah.
Matt: okay. bye.

G2g.

ARGH.  

There's a new girl in my class... her name is Jasmina Gabriella. fancy... she wants to be called Jazz.

She's really pretty. My crush and good friend, Matt, automatically fell for her. >:(  

Anyway she has short brown hair in pigtails behind her, with bangs. She's a bit more... "developed"... then most girls also... >_>

She has dark brown eyes, purple braces, and is real skinny. Sam and I decided to be nice and talk to her two days ago... so here's how it went:

Matt, Sam, Noel, another friend named Laura and I, were hanging out by "the tree" as usual, when we see Jazz walk by with no one to talk to. So me and Sam look at each other and both walk up to her.

Sam: "Hey Jasmine."

Jazz: "Hi....um, what's your name?"

Sam: "Samantha." (I'm pretty much the only one who calls her Sam)

Me: (smiles) "I'm Julee, this is Noel, Laura and Matt."

(Jazz is staring at Matt, Matt waves) 

(Jazz waves back....)

Jazz: "Do you know where room 14 is?"

Matt: (points) "right there."

Jazz: "thanks." (walks away)

Sam: "do you wanna hang out?"

Jazz: "sure!"  

so then we hung out and Jazz and Matt were talking like crazy. ugh...

I'll finish this later. :/ 

anyway, Jazz is in band and she claims to have played the flute for 2 years. she's not very good... Noel plays Clarinet next to me, Matt plays trumpet, Sam plays bass clarinet, and Laura plays flute.

I shall conduct a table of band geek-ness.  

Julee- concert clarinet, (second chair) flute, baritone saxophone  

Matt- concert trumpet, (second chair) drums

Noel- concert clarinet (first chair)

Sammy- concert bass clarinet, (first chair) clarinet

Laura- concert flute, (first chair) just started alto sax

Jazz- concert flute (third chair). (haha) 

so yeahs I'm obsessed with band... and I'm suspicious of Jazz being in band... (Jazz-band? uhh...) 

I have two F's in Lit and comp (just like zebra fan) as you know, and my teacher Mr.O'Riley gave us this printout thing showing what we did and did not do....

I have EVERYTHING missing in Composition and 10 things missing in Literature!!! wtf?!?!

my parents are going to be PISSED!

Mr. O gave us until tomorrow to finish everything for full credit! I have to go to bed in 2 hours, so what the heck am I doing on poohblogs?

ahh... i don't know what I should do. perhaps maybe starting on my work will help a little bit....

I have a whole lot more to say but no time to say it. buh bye! 

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haha I just found out how to do that.

 ♥, Julee.